I am writing this post from the truck, on the way to Ocala for Rocking Horse. I had a spark of curiosity when I remarked to my mom that the weekend felt perfectly routine, so far. Every evening before we leave for a competition is the exact same; clean my tack, pack the trailer and my clothes, and lay out an outfit for the next morning. Similarly, every show morning is the exact same; wake up hours before the sun rises, feed the horses, grab a cup of coffee, load up, and go. We plan our stops in a way that maximizes our efficiency. We top off our tank about two hours in at a Loves station with a McDonalds (a Chicken McGriddle is an essential part of this stop, as well!), then do the same at another truck stop a few hours after. We have made these exact same two stops every time we have ever taken the trailer to Ocala; which, is quite often, as my coach is based there. This routine is essential to lowering my stress levels before competitions. I have discovered that normality is the key to leveling both my anxiety and OCD. I have my very specific way to pack that ensures I do not need to be anxious about forgetting important items, and we have our very specific drive planned out that ensures I do not need to be anxious about being late. Of course, there are scenarios that sometimes cannot be helped, such as a timely flat tire or a dead-lame horse on a show morning. However, there is nothing better than a morning like this one, that feels perfectly normal. This does not even necessarily have to do with competitions, either. Every morning before school is the exact same for me, as well, which allows me to be in the ideal headspace to maximize my learning potential for the day. Now, as I am MODERATELY satisfied (in subtle reference to my last post regarding perfectionism) with this impulsive post, I will go about my usual activities for a long drive. AirPods in, Spotify on, and allow the excitement for the coming weekend to build mile-by-mile until we finally arrive at our destination. Routine is a beautiful thing, and has greatly helped in decreasing my anxiety.
As a side note - I want to thank Audrie Stanka, Zach Brandt, and Eventing Nation for everything. I am so overwhelmed at the response this blog has generated, and knowing I am not alone in my journey fills me with indescribable joy and confidence. Seeing my writings featured on EN is almost unbelievable; I have to refresh the page and pinch myself numerous times to ensure I am not dreaming. I cannot wait to see what the future holds.
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