I am one of those people who likes to plan ahead. Majorly. I get incredibly anxious when I don’t know what I’m doing on this day, at this time, two months from now. I had my entire year of showing planned out, down to my goal of doing the 1* at Ocala International in April 2022. We’ve been doing great; Todd and I just jumped clear around our first Training Level as a pair. He is fit, sound, and honestly feels better than ever. I was really looking forward to doing Stableview in a couple of weeks. Unfortunately, with horses especially, things don’t go to plan. That would be nine screws and a giant titanium plate in my right elbow. I’m looking at about eight weeks of recovery, that’s supposed to be off a horse. Physically I’m in a lot of pain, I just had surgery yesterday and I think I would rather they have amputated. Not really, but I had no idea this would hurt so badly. Although, I know that pain killers and physical therapy will make this so much better. And I am on a LOT of pain killers. Thank God. Mentally, however, I’m not doing so great. I’m looking at losing my entire fall season, and I honestly have no idea when I’ll be back on the horse. I especially have no idea when I will be back in my prime. I’m stressing about not being the rider that I was, and ruining my spring season because of confidence issues. I just got over a ton of competent issues, and I’m terrified of having to go through that again. However, I have a great support system around me that is going to help me get back to where I was both physically and mentally. It feels like this is the end of the world, especially for someone like me that hates changing the plan, but at the end of the day it could have been my head that was shattered. I don’t think I’d be writing this blog post right now if that had been the case. My goals don’t have to change, I truly feel that with those people around me, I’ll have a great winter season. I’m trying to keep my hopes up. If anyone has tips on overcoming something like this, feel free to let me know. I need the advice!
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